The Day Gravity Breaks

Some nights I stare up at my ceiling, textured with white specks of all shapes and sizes. It makes me think of when I was younger, and I’d lie on my back, pretending the ceiling was the floor. I’d pretend that gravity decided to do a 180 on us, turning us upside down but leaving everything else glued to its spot.

I’d think of how I’d have to be sure not step on any light fixtures. How I’d have to step over the head jamb of doorways when I went from one room to another. How I’d have to avoid any ceiling fans and the dangers they’d bring.

I’d think of how my frustration would build as I’d see everything I want or need, just barely out of my reach. The sink, the food in the fridge, my computer, my bed.

All of them, and many more things, just staring at me, taunting me with how frustratingly close yet unreachable they are. Time would go by as I looked at these things in a state of helplessness, wishing I had some way to reach them.

But then I’d get creative. The fridge and kitchen cabinets would become ladders to climb down to what once was the floor. The sink would become a water fountain. Making bagels in the morning would become a fun game of catch, my prize being a delicious breakfast. And going outside would be my time to pretend like I’m a superhero, using grapple hooks to make my way from one place to another.

It would be different, but after a while, I — and everyone else — would get used to it. None of us would get why the world is the way it is now, but we’d learn that we just have to accept it for what it is and adapt. Our upside-down world would become the new normal.

We’d all still get together with our families for the holidays and other get togethers. Friends would still gather to talk about the latest books or TV shows. Coworkers would still shuffle into their weekly meetings. Things would be different, but we’d all make it work.

Sometimes I still let those thoughts I had as a kid run through my head, playing through impossible scenarios. It’s challenging and just plain fun to see what solutions I can come up with, even if I’d have to work out the specific logistics at some point.

In a weird way, it also makes me grateful for my feet that are stuck to this Earth as they should be. It reminds me that life isn’t any harder than it needs to be. It’s not much, but it’s something.

And, while gravity is still in its right state of mind, know that if the world ever does go topsy-turvy, you can count on me.

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– The Poetagraphist

Work That Matters

As of late, I’ve been struggling with my photography as an artist. The last year has been learning how to handle my camera and the basics like how to meter, orienting myself with various technical terms, and other beginner level tasks.

While I’ve still got a lot to learn, I feel at this point that I’ve learned enough to at least progress to the next level — exploring work that matters.

But how can you work towards that? I’ll list a couple of ideas down below, but before I do, I’ll give credit where credit’s due by giving props to this video by The Art of Photography. It inspired me to sit down and write this list and it’s a great channel that I’d recommend to anyone wanting to learn more about various aspects of photography.

So, let’s get started, shall we?

Research The History

You may be thinking,

“Ugh, history.”

I know. It seems boring, but it doesn’t have to be, especially with all the options we have. You can learn in so many ways about the history of photography such as books at the library, articles on the internet, or videos on Youtube. There’s so many sources out there full of history that it’s almost impossible to find an option that you don’t like.

You can learn something as in depth or as little as you want. Maybe you’d rather just flip through a book of compositions and read more about the pieces and artists that confuse or amuse you. Or maybe you want to read all the information you can and know the history down to every little detail.

Whatever option you choose, having the gist of your craft and its history is vital to creating work that matters. You’ll learn how artists in the past pushed their medium, and, more importantly, where we are right now in the world. This is crucial as the only way to push your medium is to understand what has and hasn’t been done.

Imitation: The Sincerest Form Of Learning

So now with your newfound knowledge of history and a handful of your favorite artists, it’s time to pay homage and copy them.

But why?

While it’s important to have done your research and look up a few of your favorite photographers, it’s equally as important to figure out how they got those shots. Find some images you really love, and see if you can get close to something they’ve done. Now, it doesn’t have to be an exact copy, but try to go for the feeling they got in that image.

For example, try to photograph dioramas like Paolo Ventura, use masks like Ralph Eugene Meatyard, dive into conceptual photography like Cindy Sherman, or even capture quiet moments of humanity amidst a chaotic world as Saul Leiter did.

By doing so, you’ll learn various skills that will help you in a variety of settings, and you’ll probably be having a bit more fun doing it than just taking photographs with no thought behind it.
You’ll also learn if you want to continue down that route. Maybe you found the dioramas to be a bit drab, but you found you really have a passion for conceptual portraiture.

From here you can further explore and begin to dive into whatever genre you pick up, honing the skills needed for it and really fine tuning what makes your particular rendition of a genre special.

Stop Taking Easy Shots

What do I mean by this?

When I’m talking about easy shots, I mean the ones we’ve all seen; things like pictures of sunsets, black and white images with one thing in color, and other cliché ideas.

Just because something is pleasing to the eye doesn’t mean it’s work that matters. These are all things that have been overdone ad naseum, and if you’re not imitating something to learn how it’s done, you’re not really pushing yourself or working towards creating something that matters.

Really work with your subject. Consider all the angles you can view it at. Think about what you’re trying to say and why you’re taking a photograph of your subject. It’ll take a bit more time, but you’ll come out with a composition that speaks much more about you and what your view on this world is. You’ll develop a style that will eventually become recognizable to other people.

Sure, you may not get as many likes and attention because you’re not feeding into society’s demands for pretty pictures, but you’ll be much more satisfied knowing that you’re working towards making something unique and worthy of your skill set that shows what you believe in.

Pick A Theme, Any Theme

Even after considering all the angles and working for your photographs, things may still begin to to feel a bit stale.

By this point, you may want to sit down and really hone down a specific subject or idea. It could be something simple, such as only photographing subjects like doors or cars. Or it could be photographing in black and white, looking for more abstract shapes and ideas in the world.

You could even start a project on something you really care about. Maybe you really want to document all forms of American society like Robert Frank had. Or maybe you want to tackle other issues, such as environmental ones like the effects of global warming or social ones like human trafficking.

Take all the time you need on whatever it is; if it’s something you’re extremely passionate about, it could even be a project that you continue for your whole life. You never know where a project will take you, so get started on one and let it take you where it may.

Volunteer

Volunteering your talent is an incredible way to create work that matters, and there are numerous opportunities such as elderly services, animal shelters, and any local non-profits in your area. This article has a few more helpful options as well.

Through volunteering, you’ll get in contact with people you may have never met in your life, learning their stories that may change how you see the world and your place in it as a photographer. You’ll get a lot of practice working with different subjects and in different settings as well.

It’s also a chance to make an impact on people. At the very least, you’ll make someone’s day just a little bit better, but in some cases you may even go so far as making a profound impact on someone’s life.
Now that’s work that matters.

Patience Is A Virtue

Overall, there’s no easy step to making work that matters. It’s countless days, nights, months, and even years of continuous work. No matter whether you’re at the beginning of your path — like me — or further down the road, keep this in mind as you keep working. Be patient and keep striving to find and refine your photographic voice.

Get out there and work hard, but never lose track of why you picked up a camera in the first place.

Best of luck, and happy shooting!

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The Doctor Is In

I recently went to my first therapy session. While I was a bit nervous, things are already off to a great start and I’m already learning some helpful tips and tricks. Today I’d like to share one tip involving a grounding technique that uses all five of your senses:
You slowly go through the list and label five things you can see, four things you can feel, three things you can hear, two things you can smell, and one thing you can taste.

Normally I’m a type of person who’s always running around at 100 miles an hour with all sorts of busywork, so it really struck me how this forced me to slow myself down and focus on the minute details.
My favorite part was when my therapist added to tell yourself at the end, “And my feet are on the ground and

I’m Safe”

I just love that. Every time I get to that point I feel a wave of warmth envelope me. I feel relaxed and accomplished to have come back to the present moment and ultimately bring down my stress levels.

Perhaps you may be thinking that stress isn’t such a big deal. You’ve gotten along fine so far, even in a stressful environment, so why add something like this?
The thing is, when you get so worked up, the body goes into fight-or-flight mode, releasing all sorts of chemicals that result in physiological changes such as increased strength and blood flow, dilation of the pupils, and a host of other effects that prepares the body for times of crisis.
Unfortunately, when the source of the stress is something like rush hour or a bad day at the office, this really does no good. It’s even downright dangerous if it’s chronic, leading to issues such as anxiety, depression, or panic attacks among other things.
In reality, adding a short little exercise like this is more than worth the extra couple of moments you have to take out of your day. If anything, it can’t hurt to try it at least once or twice, right?

So, next time you’re feeling a bit stressed, give it a shot, even if it’s just to humor me. And when you’re done, you can tell yourself:

“I’m Safe”


A New Year To Mental Health

5 Ways To A Better Mind, Better You

As I look back on this year, I can’t help but be proud of what I’ve accomplished. I picked up and ran with photography, shooting concerts for an online publication and learning more about how I see this world. I started writing song reviews and doing interviews for artists on another site. I even got my own website up and running for the world to see! It’s been a great year of getting my feet wet creatively and to let the small number of people who visit this site see what I do.

But after some contemplation and rough nights, I realize I’m lacking somewhere; I’ve been so busy chasing after dreams that I haven’t taken the time to closely look at the bumps, cuts, and bruises I’ve taken on along this path of life filled with its fair share of prickly patches.

With the new year coming up, I figured now is the time to think about what I can do about that. I’ve created a list of 5 specific ways you can work towards greater peace of mind and be closer to the best version of yourself you can possibly.

So without further ado, here are my 5 ways to work towards a healthy mind in the year of 2019.

1. Journal Once A Day

After a tedious day filled with stress, it can be hard to know what’s on your mind. While you may be tempted to sit and watch old episodes of Arrested Development, Workaholics, or silly cat videos ad naseum, consider writing in a journal. Journaling can be a good way to reduce stress, get some quiet time, and organize your day and sort out whatever thoughts may be in that tangled up yarn ball of a mess we call the human brain.
Just write about whatever comes to mind. It doesn’t even have to all make complete sense. This activity is for you and you alone so get it all out there and drag out whatever thoughts you may have onto the page. And if it seems hard to focus, putting on some ambient music may be a good way to provide a lush soundscape that can help ease you into your thoughts.
These thoughts don’t even have to be in a physical journal that you write in. Typing up feelings in a word processor on your computer is a great alternative, and may even be better for some who feel like they often can’t keep up with their thoughts while writing. Various programs are out there specifically for journaling, but again it doesn’t really matter as long as you get your thoughts out there. The sooner you sort out what’s in your head and figure out what’s on your mind, the sooner you can identify and solve problems in your life that you might not have even known were an issue.

2. Avoid Obsessing Over Social Media

Every day you’re bombarded by all sorts of apps vying for your attention: Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, the list goes on and on. Even the perception that we need to devote so much time to it can be draining.
On top of this is the nasty habit of comparing ourselves to others, making us feel insecure and inadequate.
But as Steven Furtick – a pastor, songwriter, and New York Times best-selling author – points out, “The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.”
Just because you might not have as nice of a car or as high-paying of a job doesn’t mean you’re any worse than someone you might compare yourself to. You can’t possibly know their entire story; maybe they’ve had to make sacrifices to get whatever it is, be it long hours at work or long sleepless nights. Or maybe they even got the money through the death of a loved one who they would take any day over the money.
To put it bluntly, it’s also possible that they had a better start to life than you did with a family that has more wealth, higher education, or any of the above. It’s not fair and it’s just the way this world works, but the sooner you can grapple with this reality, the better off you’ll be when you can feel the temptation to compare yourself to others.
Your path will be different than everyone else’s, so feel free to take a look at whatever social media you enjoy, but considering limiting yourself on it, be it by your own will or with an app that limits your usage.
Whatever social media you do use – or don’t – just remember this: as long as you’re happy with where you’re at or are making active changes to better yourself, that’s all that matters.
The only person you have to compete with is yourself.

3. See A Therapist

In a society that often times look down on therapy, it can be hard to justify that it can be a good step towards better mental health. You may think that it’s too much of a hassle, you’re worried about what others may think, or that no one really thinks about going to therapy, right?
But the thing is that that’s far from the truth; a press release from the American Psychological Association back in 2004 concluded from a survey that, “Nearly half (48%) of American households have had someone see a mental health professional and nine out of 10 Americans say they are likely to consult or recommend a mental health professional if they or a family member are experiencing a problem.”
Clearly from this we can see many people have sought out therapy or would consider it. We all go through hardships, some of us even suffer from mental illness, and most if not all of us would benefit from talking to a trained professional who can help us work through our mental barriers.
The release goes on to state that cost and insurance are still seen as significant barriers to people, which is completely understandable; with sessions costing anywhere between $75-$200 a pop, it’s no wonder people see this as a barrier.
For those that are concerned about their finances, this article may be a helpful resource in finding an affordable option that works for you. I’d recommend giving it a look and seeing your options. While I wish I’d seen it earlier in the year, I’m more than grateful for it and am happy to know I’ll be seeking it in 2019.

4. Answer Honestly About Your Feelings

In society we’re often trained to answer the same way about our feelings when asked how we’re doing. The question “How are you?” is more often than not just a formality that we almost always answer positively, even when we’re almost completely in shambles.
So instead of just saying “I’m good”or an automatic response like that, start working on being more honest with how you feel when someone asks. This doesn’t mean revealing every dark secret like your collection of limited edition beanie babies, but just saying things like “I’m OK” or even as far as “I’ve been better” is more honest and leaves room for the possibility of opening up with people.
Not everyone will delve further into it, and you might not even want some people to probe further, but at least you know you’re working closer to being honest about how things really are going on. It’s just another tool to better stay in touch with your emotions.
Ideally, it will also help to make it easier when you want to sit down and talk with someone about how you’re feeling. You’ll already be used to being more transparent about how you feel on a day-to-day basis, so telling someone how you honestly feel won’t necessarily feel like you’re burdening them or like it’s a sudden surprise. You may even grow closer with them as they may share some of their own thoughts and feelings as well. Overall, being open and honest is often a win-win for both parties.

5. Pick Up A New (Or Old) Hobby

Picking up a new hobby can be a great way to add some excitement to your life and give you another reason to get out of bed each morning. The best part is it doesn’t even have to cost much money or even anything at all. Maybe you want to be a writer or get into drawing. Either one only requires a pen and paper. OK, maybe some colored pens too, but people make some pretty amazing stuff with just one plain old pen.
Even resources to learn how to start a new hobby are cheap. Your local library and the advent of the internet puts us in a world where many guides and tutorials can be bought at the low low price of free.
Hobbies once reserved for the wealthy have also become much more accessible. For example, while photography is and still can be extremely expensive, you can find much more affordable cameras than you ever could, especially if you’re buying a refurbished or older model.
And even then, you can always use a cellphone for photographs. It won’t necessarily be as good as a DSLR, but many phones nowadays have cameras that can get you off to a good start before you even invest any money into the hobby, if you even decide to at all.

And for those that already have enough hobbies, maybe you’re just feeling a little stagnant with a current one; you feel like you keep doing the same thing over and over again and can’t seem to find anything new or exciting about it. If you haven’t yet, look online and see what other people are doing. Maybe there’s a new technique or trend, or maybe there’s something you can do with a hobby that you hadn’t thought of or knew was possible.
For example, I photograph mainly concerts and urban environments, but it’s been feeling a bit stale. While I still love it and enjoy it, I’m looking for that fresh breath of air that will keep me going.
That next step for me is street photography, starting with asking people in public if I can take a photograph of them. I’ll admit the thought makes me terribly nervous, but I know it will make me both a better photographer and a less self-conscious person. There’s a lot of tips, tricks, and videos online that have helped me mentally prepare for when I ask that first person if I can take a photograph of them.
While it can be scary to start a new hobby or progress further in an old one, you’ll feel accomplished and happy with yourself knowing you took the next step. The only thing holding you back in most cases is excuses, so get out there and chase after those hobbies you always wanted to pursue.

What I Love About Christmas

It’s that time of the year! The holidays have rolled in, and while it may be dark and chilly outside, the holiday spirits have kept homes bright and warm. The Salvation Army Red Kettles are out ringing their bells, the airwaves are filled with all sorts of caroling, and the malls are packed to the brim with last minute shoppers.

It’s kind of overstimulating to be honest; I hate crowds, and sometimes all the flashing lights and sounds can be a bit much. Despite this, I refuse to say bah humbug and instead focus on the parts I really love.

I love that it’s a time when I get to see more of my family. We all live in the same area, but we’re all so busy that we just never seem to see each other. But then Christmas hits and everyone’s getting along and laughing together as we’re all focused on right now rather than what’s left for later. Jokes are tossed across the room like lights on a newly christened Christmas tree and an extra sprinkle of wholesomeness fills the room just like the extra dash of love (it’s actually just more sugar) added to the Christmas cookies baked each year. 

Speaking of which, I love all the food. Gone is the day of Thanksgiving turkey and here comes the days of delectable Christmas ham with pineapples on top for extra flavor.
And of course, the aforementioned cookies, marching in flavors like peanut butter with chocolates on top, butterscotch, raw cookie dough that you’re not supposed to eat, and, my favorite, Mexican wedding cookies, which I was shocked to learn came from the white part of my family and not the Latino side.
This is all washed down with eggnog that tastes fantastic as long as you don’t think too much about the gross culmination of what is essentially half & half and eggs.

After a joyful Christmas Eve filled with family and overeating, I get ready and often times fail to get much sleep for my favorite part – Christmas day itself. It’s not because of the presents, but because of the fact that, on Christmas day, everything

Stops.

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Do you hear that? It’s nothing. The shop lights have all gone out, leaving the business districts like ghost towns. The once-crowded streets are now seas of asphalt covered in slushy snow. A hush of quiet covers the town as everyone implicitly agrees to stay home and spend it in peace. It’s the one time of the year I can truly relax and settle in for a day of rest.

My only gripe is that I wish every day could be like this, but then again that wouldn’t make Christmas special anymore, would it? So put on some old Christmas music or just kick back and enjoy the silence. Whatever you do, I hope you have a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

Door

I came through a door today
as white as a baptismal gown
and watched a city rise
like a knocked down boxer
rising to finish the last round

Amidst boarded up windows
I saw life:
a store here with antiques
another with sweet treats
artists’ studios and music stores
along with various office spaces
where my next story could take place

Away from my dead-end job
that gave me only a fancy title
and sucked away my creativity
dry like a juice pouch
in the middle of July
all for money that
I couldn’t even enjoy

Away from a flatlining city
its homes robbed each night
where I was mugged at gunpoint
fear growing as I watched in pity
at where I grew up my whole life

So, I closed the door gently behind
sure to lock it from the evils outside
and walked into the town
to start my next chapter
this one filled with less pain
and more laughter

Nice Doesn’t Mean Perfect

It’s a hard truth to accept, isn’t it? I think many of us have been through the experience; You’re dating someone, and nothing’s wrong, but at the same time, nothing’s great either. That’s not to say it’s a nightmare. In fact, you laugh with them on a fairly regular basis and even enjoy their company. Things have just taken a path different from what you expected.

You try everything you can think of. Trips to new places, learning more about this other person, even talking about how you feel, and still nothing’s working. No amount of new experiences or talking can seem to help. It might mask it for a little bit, but at the end of the day, the feeling’s still there.

The guilt starts to set in. How did this happen? What did I do wrong? It all feels like your fault, and it gets trapped in your chest like a bunch of starved tarantulas in a cage trying to get out and forage.

And you know what needs to happen next. For the sake of yourself and them, you know you’ll have to say those dreaded words:

“I’m breaking up with you.”

Even just thinking of it makes you sick to your stomach. You might not want to be with them as a partner anymore, but at the same time you don’t want to hurt them. While the feeling’s gone, you still consider them to be your friend.

But think of it this way: if you know you don’t love them anymore, staying with them is, in a way, hurting them as well. They may not know anything’s wrong, think the problem’s been solved, or maybe they’ve been on edge about it the whole time. They’re also losing precious time that could be used to process and move on from the relationship.

The longer you wait, the worse it will be.

It’s not going to be easy, but hopefully they’ll understand and maybe you’ll even be able to end things on amicable terms. Either way, you’ll feel incredibly relieved to have it out there, and both of you will be one step further along on your relationship pathway.

So be respectful, be kind, and let them down gently, but know you’re making the best choice for both of you. They may be nice, but if there’s no more sparks for you and you’ve tried what you can, it’s best to move on and learn from the experience.  After all, nice doesn’t mean perfect.


Plato’s Cave

Two years spent here
pushing carts in solitude
stocking milk in a cooler

Away from irate customers
whose misplaced anger
taught me to fear others

But the store’s closed down now
its windows painted white
lights inside the only sign of life

So I’ve left this place
with dimly lit mismatched bulbs
to confront my anthropophobia
and see people in true sunlight

Smoke

Sickly sweet scent
of scorched incense
sticking to my skin

Stamped separately,
a baby bird touched
by human hands

Cigarette smoke’s sapped
insurmountable spans
of my parents’ lives
measurable only in death
like rings on trees

They softly speak:
“I’ll stop, I swear, this time”
yet the cigarette never seems
to secede from lips lightly coated
with nicotine

And I wonder how we got here
how did these companies
these bands of thieves
deceive beings to suck in sick
via small vials of disease

And that’s why
in smoke I walk warily
breath held so I barely
breathe these brainwashing
butts of dependency

and for my parents’ perilous paralysis
I pray for perforated practices
pitifully knowing this may never be

But I end this peroration proudly
perceiving I can prevent this pattern
in me
and be the change I want to see